I have too many alarms going in my life. My phone, my computer, all buzzing at the same time. I need to just step back and chill.

I need to relax when worrying consistently about my classes. I will figure this out, its not impossible. Just difficult. Life is difficult. focus. Take some summer courses. Overload. There are things you can do to reach your ultimate goal. I just have to get myself into gear. Focus and work with the school and my teachers. I can do this. take Spanish or Italian or something over the summer. get that out of the way, find a science that will work, do it. Figure out my Education stuff. Anything, and everything. I will get done...but how long will it take?

What have I become?

Sometimes I don't know what in the world I want. I want to do well in school and yet I don't put in the effort I once did. I want to prove I am smarter than you, but I don't try and learn anything new. I want to get in shape, but I am not willing to work for it. I want to be be more frugal and concerned about my money, but I keep buying frivolous things. But most importantly. I want to prove I am a moral and upstanding citizen, but when was the last time I thought out and questioned my beliefs. I have stagnated, become bored (boring) and complacent. Whats the point in life if I don't think about things? Anything. I used to think of myself as an amateur philosopher. What was the last topic I discussed? Who is a Skrull? Well it can't be Luke Cage that's too obvious. Its clearly Echo. Really? This is what I have become. I am a shell of my former self. Empty and Apathetic. Just a quick line I stole and a joke that's old.